Where did the summer go? It seems I closed my eyes and when they opened, the leaves were gold and falling from the trees. Each season seems to roll right into the next without giving us a chance to enjoy right where we are. The past months have been a time of waiting on so many things. I am starting to feel right at home with the silence. Mostly I just desperately desire to hear direction and revelation from God. Even when He whispers, it is a great gift and not to be taken for granted.
I spent the summer writing some new music and I’m hoping to start another project this winter. I am eager for these songs to convey what has been in my heart over the past year and am praying for clear direction on how this music needs to relate to people. One thing I am sure of is that this next collection of songs is going to be a ministry tool for those in need of physical and emotional healing.
In my quest to define my music, I have spent many hours seeking God on what He wants to do with this gift. There are a thousand avenues a musician can travel to use the gift God has given him. I went through a dry season of feeling like “what is really the point”. During that time, the Lord reminded me of David, his psalmist heart and how it was used to bring comfort to Saul. I started thinking of the fact that when David went in to play and sing for Saul, it was just the two of them and how his only concern was pouring out musical oil over Saul’s spiritual wounds. In other words, I don’t think in those moments David was wondering whether or not Saul knew someone over in Nashville that might get him a great gig or a lucrative record deal. Likewise, I doubt that Saul was too concerned with any flat notes David hit. They were looking for something deeper.
There are so many unbelievable musicians, singers and songwriter’s out there doing all kinds of different things with their music. But I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that God has called me to sing a certain kind of song and I have to stay true to that musical journey. After every song I write, I always feel that same sense of “how will this song affect someone’s heart” and whether it is a song that helps people realize they are not alone in their struggles or whether it really does heal something in them, my ultimate goal is for people to feel touched and comforted by the music they hear.
I have spent the past few years wrapping my arms around people in pain and longing for something to give them that might calm them through their difficult days and nights. Music seems to be a way for me to express my own hurts and healings and I want to sing that to even just one person who needs to hear that they have not been forgotten by God.
Please keep this ministry in your prayers as we let our desire be known; that the music we create will soothe weary souls and that the ministry we give will be embedded in love. I pray every song I write and record will reveal that.